spring cleaning part 2

i should be left with 2 major work and im done.

i even clean my trexi and my table rug.

Good bye to all and every single dust. WOOO WOO

SHAG.

updates.

gosh. iknow i have not be updating. And many has been complaining that my blog is too wordy and complaining.
WHAT TO DO. im way too lazy to upload and i am just practically complaining. Cannot ?!?! HAHAHS.

Went tekong last thrus to send my cousin off.

Oh well, the mummy-boy will be leaving home for 8 days.

i guess when i see him on this coming cny, he will be much tan and,

more MAN. ”when young boys becoming man.” HEH.

Oh well. Saw a disgusting teacher. you know who you are mrs bitchy y.

1 week coming to cny,

tons of things not pack and clean. Spring cleanning starts tml,

i shall clean portion by portion first.

My room is way too dusty and too.. eh.. many rubbish. HAHAs.

End of march, i guess is on the 22. my last paper.

I AM GRADUATING!

ok, it sound so unbelievable. of course i still have

must more dreams to do, or to fulfil.

of course i am not going to screw up my last 2 paper,

and i guess i would not be upgrading my honors and stuck with the

‘’second upper honor”

oh well, be satisfied. i am not going to give myself too much stress. heh

job searching soon. ftw, i could not find a proper picture for my resume!!!

in conclusion (chernie agrees): i have a cranky face. HAHA.

Sunday, went out to study.

AMK’s park mac was way too quiet. awesome view. awesome peace.

WHY MY DSLR NOT WITH ME!??!

ok. but then again, i studied for 1 topic,

and i was so exhasted. WTH. I was thinking..

what should i buy on tuesday’s shopping HAHHAS.

And, what shoe should i buy for cny.

I got tons of friends not met during my break. you You and YOU!

That unico jeans is damn damn fitting. HAHAs.

I NEED focus.motivation.

Plus, 2 main assignment. Gosh

oH well, 6 am. got to sleep. Good night world!

Protected: boys to man. from bitch to UGLY OLD FUCKING TOAD. HAHAHAS. – Please get pwd from me.

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:

Password:

changes.

sometimes, i think i am the worst and tiring child ever. i have to work my pocket money out whereby my classmates have tons of money and do not need to work. My result have to work triple hard because im lack of time and i am easily forgetful. sometimes i feel so drain and tired, i starts to rumble and grumble. but end of the day, when i see and heard my bestfriend suffering more than me, i feel bad.

many people work full time, studied part time. saving up to pay school fees. where by my school fees and debted from my parent. i can return after i worked which is not that tedious as it is. those full timer have  stress in workplace and as well as studies.

so, my complain is useless. i am still fortunte. and have to admit i am lazy ahhahahsa.

...

anyway, side track,

recently met up with a friend who totally changed.

lunnie say changes cant be avoid,but accepted.

but if someone changes and tend to hurt you, will you try to accept him for who he is now,

or still thinking who he is in the past?

Protected: it sucks.

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:

Password:

locked.

i know some of my post are locked.
because its sensitive and i never ever want to move my blog again. so hence, bear with it.

and so, thanks who ever viewing my this wordpress. like seriously.

Protected: kept.

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:

Password:

yellow mellow.

i was thinking that baby lappy finally were saved by

the same old person that had been saving

him again and again but then..

the screen now turned yellow!!! NOT ROMANTIC at all can!

thanks for dad trying to please me by saying this. duhs

Its really aging and i cant bear to leave him. how?

anyway, my mr.filet o’fish soul mate + laptop savior + exbf says that:

1. i grew younger.

2. my skin look finner.

3. i dont look stuck up anymore which i so angry. since when i was stuck up.

DONT LAUGH.

and my reply was

” see , see .. regret already right. 4 years already lah. LOL!”

and he look at me stunt. and was laughing in a speechless tone.

HAHAHAH and i always like to tease him like that.

When i had a heavy flu the other time, he will say this

” Dont be an emotional freak! its already 4 years plus!”

i just told him my cousin going army. AND he was laughing madly.

because he say the last time he saw him, he was like sec 1 or 2.

LOL. Chenyie saw both of us meeting each other and she commented we look adorable.

because we like to tease and bicker at each other.

other of my friends says we look like siblings now. TOO close.

seriously,

my classmate asked who am i meeting today.

i told them i was meeting my friend + used to be my ex bf 4 years ago.

and they all just giggles. why? breakup cant be good friends anymore?

and breakup meaning not contacting each other anymore?

people are just having weird perceptions. weird and funny duper ones.

heh. Arent breakup means you add a additional soul mates who had already know inside out?

as in what perfume you used, what types of things that adore you?

the other time when he had a gf, for a year plus or so,

i was actually happy for him, as in that relationship really taught him.

cause he was quite eh.. horrible and he admit himself.

Possessive freak. HE ADMITTED! and i was laughing in shock! lol

and now, i am wishing all the best, as i know he found a job of his liking,

as well as striving hard to get a degree from UOL.

so people, change your mind set

change + changes.

i cant wait to meet chermaine on friday.

hahahs i miss her hell lots. ;D

anyway, someone close to me asked me recently..

” did you feel any changes in you? i saw huge changes from whom you were 3 years back.”

this freak me actually. because.. yes i do and i know. but i just thought it would not be as much diff.

as in my character does not change much.

but for certain point, i tend to be very vision-driven now.

everything seem to be plan and virtually imagined to be achieved.

if you asked me 3 years back, what would i really want to do,

my reply will always be ”im not too sure eh.”

i tend to be to afraid to stand in front of the class or maybe asking questions.

but now, i can even correct my lecturer, and even ask questions right in the middle of the class.

im very used to  sit at the back of the lecture hall, and end of the day,

no one ever recognize me or knew if i had attended the lecture.

but now, i still love sitting in front of the lecture.

all i know was, i am for not who i was 3 years back.

who or what changes me, doesnt matters actually.

all i matters now was, keeping everything that remains behide right now.

checkmate.

prolong, aftermath,

its passes all stages and degrees.

what was left behind, was simply..

just memories.

conclusion of the day was,

Live with what it is now, and looking forward.

never regret what you did in the past.

seriously, i just need someone to tell me that, and to encourage me more.